how to be at war with yourself

welcome to my inner workings

A few months ago, when I had just started at my job, I noticed I was having difficulty with the hours. For a few weeks, Alex kept telling me to talk to an HR person or to Max, someone high up at the firm, about my hours. I kept putting it off because I felt terrified. Everyone else seemed to be able to handle the workload, and they were working longer h…